Thoughts on My Life in the World of Female Domination and Femdom BDSM
By: Domina Cinara - July 29th, 2011
I‘ve never seen life as something to be lived hand-in-hand with regret.
If we let our own fears, or the fears of others cast doubt on what we desire…
We live a life unfulfilled…limited by the dictates of others too afraid to live.
Regret is born of reflection over things done that we feel ashamed of.
I would rather risk regret over something I have done in the quest to fulfill myself…
Then wallow in regret years later over things I could have done…
But was too afraid to do… or too conscious of the eyes of others to try.
My Personal Reflections – Part I – Inceptum
(By: Domina Cinara) I don’t keep secrets about who and what I am. Sure, there are specific things that I do that I don’t tell everyone about… what I’m talking about is my lifestyle, my opinions and my sexuality.
I can understand why some people hide in “the closet”. As a teenager I would have ridiculed them as cowards, holding them in contempt for limiting their lives so. But now that I’m a few years older I concern myself as much with what others do and don’t do, so long as their actions don’t step on my toes.
“The closet” has never been the place for me. Early in my teenage years I was openly a lesbian and actively involved with femdom BDSM. Boys came a couple years later, and with them my enjoyment of male submission. By the time I was legal I was working as a dominatrix and was a dedicated part of the BDSM community.
I am bisexual… I am a dominant woman… I am a sexual sadist… I am a lifestyle dominatrix… I work as a professional dominatrix… I do phone sex… I do fetish modeling… I keep slaves and one lives with me now… I am a predator… I am a pervert.
I am happy.
In what follows I intend to expand greatly on what I just said… explaining to some degree what it is that motivates me… what it is that led me to where I am… and why I am happy to embrace it as fully as I can.
I don’t know how much masturbation material there will be in here. This is going to be a bit more serious than that, thought I’m sure getting inside the head of a woman like me will be very arousing to many. I’m just not planning to write some sort of femdom themed promo for domination phone sex or whatever. I have other websites that focus on femdom stories, fetish phone sex, erotic audio, etc. and I hope you will visit and enjoy those too. This is something different.
I’m sure I will talk about my involvement in domination phone sex somewhere along the way, but most of the examples I intend to use in illustrating points made will be taken from my “offline” life. Things that have happened in my personal sex life and things I’ve done/seen while involved in femdom BDSM as a dominatrix. Mostly things from my past as these would be what influenced me early on and guided me towards what I am now.
I’m just going to write this as I go, letting one part lead into another, allowing my thoughts to take me where they want to at the moment. Expect tangents… expect long asides. I am writing what I want to… as if any of you would expect me to do anything else. At times there may be scenes and bits of stories from my life, other times it will probably be rants about things I like or don’t – either way the consistent thing will be that you get to see who I honestly am.
There’s no way I’d be able to write anything that could fully define me (nor would I even want to if I could), so don’t be stupid and read this as anything more than a running collection of thoughts and reflections. I’m a human being, not a character in a story… real people are more complex than the written word could ever truly do justice to.
I’m going to be posting this as a series since I have no doubt it will be long… this is technically the first part… subsequent will be linked to at the bottom of each piece… and I will have an index linked from the left sidebar when I’ve gotten a bit deeper into the telling.
Of course, after reading all this I do expect you to call my fetish phone sex number and declare the obvious… that I am absolutely incredible… that I am the epitome of female domination… that I am the dominatrix of your most wondrous fantasies and darkest nightmares… ~laughs~… yup, all that and so much more is true.
Domina Cinara
Domination Phone Sex
1-877-274-8292
I don’t want to hear shit from those of you just looking for masturbation material.
My time isn’t spent catering to the whim of your little cock.
My other sites have plenty to keep you stroking so visit them if this is too cerebral for you.
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